Sunshine Thoughts
Sunshine thoughts on a better world, to win over hate with love
The morning sun’s rays find their way through the thick curtains of my bedroom window & I wake up right away. I have always been a light sleeper - the slightest disturbance, and sleep deserts me. Just like my mind which at the slightest provocation leads to a cascade of thoughts that engulfs my whole being.
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I check the time on my phone and habitually my messages and FB feed as well. As I scroll through the horrible stuff (rapes,honour killings, shootings and suicides) we call news today, the spark in my mind had already begun. I close my eyes shut and feel myself being sucked into my messy thoughts, the primary one being – “Where & when did we begin to fail as humans?”
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Was it when we were taught never to give up on our goals/ideologies/dreams/desires at all costs?
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Was it when we made our children feel like a failure when they scored less in a test and seeded the thought that life was a competition with others?
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Was it when we taught our boys that it was shameful to be human and cry their feelings out?
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Was it when we gave our pride and ego more priority over a relationship with a loved one?
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Was it when we portrayed that to succeed in life meant to hoard shit loads of money and give up on every other aspect of life?
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Was it when the real learnings & experiences in life didn’t matter anymore unless you had a degree from one of the top universities?
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Was it when we started believing that everyone else’s lives was better by looking at the social media stories and statuses?
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Was it when we were taught too much science & logic, that we forgot we are emotional beings?
As we are in the age where we are told to - “Live our lives to the fullest” or “To follow our passion” or “To be happy and positive no matter what”...
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Somewhere along the way we forgot to love without expectations, to care without demands & to give without getting. We have lost touch with our basic human nature.
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As the lines between right & wrong, black & white blur and merge into grey; the grey matter of my mind pushes me further into the whirlwind of thoughts and I end up asking the most dreaded, unanswerable question – “What is the purpose of this life?”
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Before I reach my breaking point, the ringtone of my phone brings me back to reality. As I pick up and hear his sleepy voice at the other end, all my worries on existential crisis vanishes. I realize, at the end or beginning of the day, all we need to survive is a little more love than the previous day until it begins to overturn all the hate in the world.